Hey guys! So this isn't exactly a rant here. Okay, maybe it is. It's something that's been going through my head for quite some time now and that is this whole system of school hierarchies. Back in school, I remember there was this whole categorization system on the basis of your looks, wealth and grades (much like when you grow up huh?)
But what I'm trying to say is- this entire system of categories and stereotypes really pissed me off. Not only because it was illogical, but because it was downright unfair.Especially to those of us who are more heavily built.
When you're a kid- not even 13- other kids would be picking on you for being chubby, or skinny, or getting better grades, or for losing in games. This is acceptable up to a point. I'll give them some things for being young and of underdeveloped minds. After that, it just gets outright twisted. You see kids as young as 8 years worrying about their weight. Kids crying about the fact that they can't run as fast as the others.
I have been a victim of pointless bullying. Although not to a creepy extent. But bullying nonetheless. Being an English speaking kid in a Hindi speaking area wasn't exactly very comfortable. First I was called "Angrej" (similar to being called foreigner). Then later I was bullied for being chubby. I was called fatty for a lot of my life (whether as an insult or sometimes, even in fun, it hurts us you know?)and this pissed me off the MOST. Because this one aspect of being "fat", sidelined a LOT of the achievements I had,like being good at art, or writing. In fact, I think getting better marks made it even worse in some ways. So I was the fat nerd now. Though I didn't care for it a lot of the time, but after a point, the bullying just got to me, and something in my brain snapped.
When I was a teenager, I hated being called fat so much, I went onto this whole "hostility mode" where I'd restrict my food intake and be hostile towards anyone who even looked at me funny. Although strangely enough, this was also the time I had some of my most intellectual moments where I discovered "non-conformity" and how and why it was hated by our society. That was the time I realised - I was meant to be a logical human being, with the same rights as any man out there. I had the right to speak my mind and be myself, whether society liked it or not. I had great intellectual potential going to waste because I cared about what others thought. I then fully saw a picture of peer pressure which I had not seen before completely.
I noticed that the girls around me were more susceptible to criticism. More likely to change themselves to fit in. And I realised I was becoming a part of them by trying to lose weight. And that was when I decided, "I am taking a stand! Screw you and your sexist, misogynistic expectations!"(And this applied to girls and boys, both) And so, for the second time in my adolescence, something snapped in my brain again. And this time, for the better.
Being a fat kid in South Asia isn't really easy and being chubby isn't as widely/easily accepted among women. So taking this stand was hard. Very hard. But I stuck to it. Although I must say, a lot of people in school were really narrow minded when I tried to explain gender equality and its importance to them. It's like they REFUSED to believe that such a thing existed, especially the guys. All the same I stuck by what I believed and even developed good friendships as a result too. [And by the way, it's not like all guys are jerks, many of them can be pretty understanding and nice too. And even women can be sexist by supporting things such as "size zeros", etc. ]
So anyhoo, I am happy now. In fact after entering college, I discovered even more people who thought like me and found enlightenment in sociology, which showed me an even more logical approach to the matters that bothered me about society. (It's awesome when you read a book which talks about stuff which you always thought of for years!)
In fact, I will add to that and say I am a happy, self loving individual who hold my rights and freedoms very dear to me. And any person who thinks they are superior in any way due to their sex, IQ or whatever other shit they can think of, all I can say is:
But what I'm trying to say is- this entire system of categories and stereotypes really pissed me off. Not only because it was illogical, but because it was downright unfair.Especially to those of us who are more heavily built.
When you're a kid- not even 13- other kids would be picking on you for being chubby, or skinny, or getting better grades, or for losing in games. This is acceptable up to a point. I'll give them some things for being young and of underdeveloped minds. After that, it just gets outright twisted. You see kids as young as 8 years worrying about their weight. Kids crying about the fact that they can't run as fast as the others.
I have been a victim of pointless bullying. Although not to a creepy extent. But bullying nonetheless. Being an English speaking kid in a Hindi speaking area wasn't exactly very comfortable. First I was called "Angrej" (similar to being called foreigner). Then later I was bullied for being chubby. I was called fatty for a lot of my life (whether as an insult or sometimes, even in fun, it hurts us you know?)and this pissed me off the MOST. Because this one aspect of being "fat", sidelined a LOT of the achievements I had,like being good at art, or writing. In fact, I think getting better marks made it even worse in some ways. So I was the fat nerd now. Though I didn't care for it a lot of the time, but after a point, the bullying just got to me, and something in my brain snapped.
When I was a teenager, I hated being called fat so much, I went onto this whole "hostility mode" where I'd restrict my food intake and be hostile towards anyone who even looked at me funny. Although strangely enough, this was also the time I had some of my most intellectual moments where I discovered "non-conformity" and how and why it was hated by our society. That was the time I realised - I was meant to be a logical human being, with the same rights as any man out there. I had the right to speak my mind and be myself, whether society liked it or not. I had great intellectual potential going to waste because I cared about what others thought. I then fully saw a picture of peer pressure which I had not seen before completely.
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| How I looked at the society around me ( and often, still do), except the Spencer Tracy bit |
I noticed that the girls around me were more susceptible to criticism. More likely to change themselves to fit in. And I realised I was becoming a part of them by trying to lose weight. And that was when I decided, "I am taking a stand! Screw you and your sexist, misogynistic expectations!"(And this applied to girls and boys, both) And so, for the second time in my adolescence, something snapped in my brain again. And this time, for the better.
Being a fat kid in South Asia isn't really easy and being chubby isn't as widely/easily accepted among women. So taking this stand was hard. Very hard. But I stuck to it. Although I must say, a lot of people in school were really narrow minded when I tried to explain gender equality and its importance to them. It's like they REFUSED to believe that such a thing existed, especially the guys. All the same I stuck by what I believed and even developed good friendships as a result too. [And by the way, it's not like all guys are jerks, many of them can be pretty understanding and nice too. And even women can be sexist by supporting things such as "size zeros", etc. ]
So anyhoo, I am happy now. In fact after entering college, I discovered even more people who thought like me and found enlightenment in sociology, which showed me an even more logical approach to the matters that bothered me about society. (It's awesome when you read a book which talks about stuff which you always thought of for years!)
In fact, I will add to that and say I am a happy, self loving individual who hold my rights and freedoms very dear to me. And any person who thinks they are superior in any way due to their sex, IQ or whatever other shit they can think of, all I can say is:
I totally know how you feel! Been bullied my entire life and it's totally... well you know... *shrugs*
ReplyDeleteAnd you're right... men have egos larger than an elephants behind! I guess no matter how hard you try you can't really change that... All you can do is work harder then them and prove to them that even we can do what they can and that we can do it better than them...
I was too and I hated it. I just couldn't stand it after a point. Then, I was just like "Bitch you stupid"
DeleteI think it's necessary to sometimes let those jerk faces know what their doing is just contributing to the narrow mindedness of society!